PERPLEXED

I've been through this feeling a million times already and never had any outlet of pouring everything. Rather, I keep it to myself and wait till it fades -- And that's ME! I hate being confronted, so i roll over my bunk and wet my pillow with every tear i shed till i sleep.
And hating it, I'm feeling it again to this moment. I won't pretend I'm OK because I'm really not. Got lots of questions and "what if's" lingering in mind now. Things I'm not sure is the best way to do or say with the confusion and madness that's playing with my emotions. I want to shout at the top of my lungs and cry like a baby deprived of her favorite candy :(
I'm SELFISH, i know. I'm not perfect and everyone gets a chance to feel this way more than half of their existence. I'm Tired, I'm Sad, I'm Mad and Insecure.
To the person who made me feel this way, God bless YOU!

"I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant."-Robert McCloskey